Taking Care of the Possible

Ruth Graham famously said that; As a mother, you are taking care of the possible and have all faith that God will take care of the impossible..

As I am reaching nearer to the land of motherhood, I am becoming more anxious of how I would cope with taking care of my baby. I want to be a mother that my baby would grow up and be proud of and be the one that will always be there for him/her. I think it is only natural to be feeling like this since it is my first pregnancy.

If someone asks me about having kids before my pregnancy, it would be something that I am totally not ready for, my excuses would be.."I dont know how to act around kids", or "I am not ready financially and emotionally", or "I still want to spend time alone with my hubby"..truth to the matter is, I was scared about the thought of having to take care of a human being that starts off as hopeless and would depend on my parenting skills to shape his/her personality and characters. THAT scares me. I guess, this gift from God that I am carrying in my tummy is a sign that God in His own way wants me to just face motherhood and take it as a challenge that would definitely benefit me as a person..and another wonderful phase of my marriage with Saiful.

Alhamdulillah so far I am having a joyful pregnancy, no morning sickness, no nausea, no silly cravings, or no weird habits..I am blessed with an easy pregnancy, I am hoping that this will last well throughout to the big due date day. InsyaAllah.

Today is week 24 of my baby's becoming into the world and that also signals the venturing into the third trimester of my pregnancy. Apparently my baby is now weighing about 600grams and measures about 11.3inches from head to toe. Well-proportioned and the brain is growing rapidly whilst filling up much space in the uterus. The 5 basic senses of my baby is also well functioning and the baby is very curious about whats happening around it and becoming aware of the sound of my heart beating, the growling of my hungry tummy (well, lately its probably an hourly thing!), the sound of the tv, the vacuum cleaner, the distinct voices of conversations when I am around friends and more importantly the sound of my voice.

Although I have a sure idea what the gender of the baby will be, but Saiful and I still haven't decided on a name yet. I want it to be nice and meaningful and yet not so complicated. If it is long, my baby will bound to have a nick name as he/she grows up and I want the nick name to have a meaning as well. I never knew that picking out names for your kids could be this difficult...hmm maybe I am just being fickle minded.

I am planning to start a diary on my daily activities which will include all my emotions and physical changes jotted down so that I could tell my baby when he/she is old enough to read and understand it. I watched a show on BBC once that this is good for the child-mother relationship and we had a discussion about it in class the other week as well. So, I guess today is the best day to do so as any since its the Maulidur Rasul and its the first day of the 3rd trimester.

My friend asked me yesterday on how I feel about delivering the baby, soalan cepu emas la kot sekarang ni kan? Hmm I guess I will never know until the first hint of labour pain hits me. Its surely not going to be painless but its inevitable and I am sure if millions of women could do it everyday in the world, I will be fine as well, InsyaAllah.To make it easier for me to be prepared mentally, my midwife offered a tour around the maternity ward and having a peek on how the delivery rooms will be like..am so looking forward to that.

Oh my, I have a feeling that this post will be a long one if I don't stop now..have loads more to write but I think I will save some in my diary! hehe...

I need to makan anyway cos my mind is focusing on the dinner left overs from last night..yummy yummy..will continue this again later.

Comments

[MeLLe]

MaSSe, well, first of all didn't know dat u r pregnant.. COngrats... Btw i am too.. =) 26 weeks dis week... hope to hear frm u soon... Keep in touch wiv lotsa pics k..

[Massabrina]

Thanks Melle Melle...Congratulations to you as well dearie...xxx

[R nis]

im so touch while reading this :) i pray for your health n baby too :) i believe , yes strongly believe that you will be a good, dedicated, wonderful and loving mother sweetheart!

much love,
rnisjunita

[Massabrina]

aww thank u ninish...i pun emo sgt la skrg ni, ish ish emotional wreck tau! love u2..

xxx